26 Feb, 2021
I am aghast at how to proceed
The journal you began is midway
I need to be at peace
This decision keeps you not at bay
What good will that paperwork do?
If you will not be there when it's published?
Contrasted with that difficult moment of losing you
I am now beating myself over the head
Completing your paperwork is my legacy to honor you
It will never bring you back
Awe, pleasure, wonder, ecstasy
Reliving only the positives to keep calm
Abundant and forgiving you were
The system could not hold you
Uniquely practical, feeding my incompleteness
With gratitude, completing your journal.